I'm quite sure Julianne knows nothing about today being Mothers' Day. All she knows is that she had to hand me this big huge purple box containing a lovely hand-made gift by Papa. And if you asked her last night, she would also have told you that the Isetan paper bag that she spent the entire of last night carrying around the restaurant was also meant for Mama. My daughter is sweet that way. She did give me an extra wet kiss complete with biting my chin as I was putting her down for her afternoon nap! Maybe, just maybe, she does know today's meant to be just that extra special for Mama.
But really, it was just like any other Sunday - although I must say I really love the little photo calendar the hubs put together for me! He got one of those blank calendar-style scrapbook and filled it with 30 of my all-time favourite photos of Juju and us - one for each day of the month - and topped each page off with the date of the photo and a some short journaling. It was really sweet! Gonna bring it to the office and let it don my desk!
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| Cover page of the gift from Juju! |
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| The day it all began .... |
I've been at this motherhood business for some 18 months (ok plus a few days) now and really, I'm still learning everyday. It is no easy business - I salute my mum for being at this for the past 36 years. I look back at the past 18 months and think of those times I was stretched to my limits and got frustrated or irritated by Jules and I think what a horrible mother am I. Then I think about all those hugs, kisses, pats pats Jules has showered me with or cries for me to carry and comfort her when she was sick or needy and I think - my daughter looks past all the times I've vented my frustrations at her and still thinks I'm the best person in the world and that if there's anyone she wants to be carried by when she's unwell, it is ME. Which makes me feel even more horrible that I would sometimes be angry with my little munch'kin. But I'm just being brutally honest here, because motherhood is no walk in the park and while on most days, you wished the day didn't end and you could go on cuddling her and all that baby powder smell, there really are some days where you can't wait for it to be over and for the little one to just be sent to bed.
And so I continue learning. Learning to be patient, learning to love even more, learning to be the best mother I can. And while I continue this learning journey, I'm just glad I've got Jules by my side to continue smothering me in her kisses even when I fail her and I've got the best partner in my tag-team running this motherhood/parenthood race with me.
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| The reason I celebrate Mothers' Day! |
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